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3rd Lane- Dreams
05:24
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I know these dreams aren’t real
I’d rather hope than feel
Caught in regret
And lost ideals
I know these dreams are real
Bottoming out reveals
Reaching a new height
Once concealed
Crashing into subconscious fields
Premonitions and hidden shields
Waking up empty I can’t heal
I must embrace these years
Learn to accept these fears
I know these dreams aren’t real
I’d rather hope than feel
Closing these walls I’ve built
Won’t heal
I know these dreams are real
Missing it all derailed
Chasing to capture
All that’s sailed
I’m running after all that’s failed
Falling in faster storms unveil
My greatest fears have all prevailed
I know these dreams are real
Racing these lies won’t heal
Crashing into subconscious fields
Premonitions and hidden shields
Waking up empty I can’t heal
I must embrace these fears
Learn to accept these years
I don’t know where I belong
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3rd Lane- Don't Need You
05:00
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I’m lost
So will I ever be found?
Will I care to stick around
Or even get to
If this is how it ends
Then perhaps I should begin
To make peace and my amends
With or without you
And now I know why
I’m not good enough for me
I wasn’t good enough for you
But you, you were a lie
Disguising as the truth
And you have tried
To force your perspective on me
Everything as it turned out
Was all about you
And I have cried
Blaming myself countless times
For all the hurt I’ve felt and why
It is I fell through
And now I know why
I’m not good enough for me
I wasn’t good enough for you
But you, you were a lie
Disguising as the truth
And now I know why
I’m not good enough for me
I wasn’t good enough for you
And you held yourself so high
With all you thought you knew
But I don’t need you
No I don’t need you
No I don’t need you
Goodbye to all of your abuse
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3rd Lane- Save Me
05:06
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I’ve been gone
For way too long
I hold on
But it feels wrong
Time still finds a day to slip away from me
Why won’t you save me?
Wanting to release the guilt that’s found its way within me
But you gave it to me
Hope moves on
And faith is gone
Fear holds on
Until I’m gone
Through my clarity I find that I can not believe
The lies you gave me
Falling into dreams of worlds that are evading me
So why replay these?
Love is but a dream that has managed to hide and to escape from me
Why do you hate me?
Drifting consciously through all of the paths that I’ve missed, that plague at me
I can’t escape me
How many layers deep into this darkness around me will I succumb
The words you gave to me, they’ve left me even more empty than I’ve become
And through these shattered dreams, I regress back to that place of being alone
I’m crying out for you, and I need to realize you won’t ever…
Come and bring me through to a place embraced by your warm, loving safety
Why won’t you save me?
Save me
And where you have you been all the times that I’ve asked and prayed to you for me?
Why do you hate me?
Hate me
How can I have faith when you constantly turn your back away from me?
Why won’t you save me?
Save me
Finally coming through with your true clarity, your silence says to me
Just save your damn(ed) self
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And I’ll bleed for you
If it helps you to make it through
I’ll be there for you
Because that’s what we are to do
But it is time to unattach
All the strings that have held me back
I can still care for all of you
And somehow learn to love myself too
Once removed
And I love all of you
Despite what we have been through
I will never give up on you
I’ll be there when you need me to(o)
And it’s hard to let go of you
When you are all I ever knew
But it’s time to separate, and
To help myself too
And I’ll bleed for you
If it helps us to make it through
And I really don’t want to feel this
Sadness again
I have had enough of it with all
That’s already been
I am trying so hard to control
Myself within
Letting go of all the loss and pain
From our past transgressions
I remember how I’ve felt when things
Were good before
And I’ll consciously hold on to that
When the dark is in store
I’ll remember that the purest thing
I feel for you
Can never be broken by these words
Of hurt that I’ve spewed
I can only hope that you will know what’s
In my heart is true
You are all the most important things
In life to me
You are all that I’ve had to fall on
When all else failed me
And when that final day comes to me
You all will be
The ones that I will be thinking of in
Loving memory
I’ll remember how I cherished
Every one of you
I’ll remember the best times we shared
All we went through
I’ll remember you’re my family
The ones I need
How you helped me get through
And I will bleed for you
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3rd Lane- Home
06:09
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Home, is where I want to go
No, I’m left here on my own
Home, is where I want to go
No, you’ve left me all alone
Alone, is all I’ve ever known
Don’t go, please take me with you home
You left alone, but I felt you inside
When I was down, you were right by my side
But you left alone
Time, and space continue on
Long, even after you’re gone
Time, gives me nowhere, to hide
Leaving, it’s darkness by my side
And time, takes you away from me
Replaced, by slow fading memories
You left alone, but I felt you inside
When I was down, you were right by my side
But you left alone
You left alone, but I felt you inside
I can’t let go, with you here by my side
I can’t hold you, here with me, but I tried
To capture time
We die alone, we must all face that time
The great unknown, leaves our absence behind
You were my home, through my darkness you shined
Loving my soul, through my darkest decline
You died alone, and you left me behind
But the love and bond we shared can’t be broken by time
And when my day comes, you will be by my side
Home, is where I want to go
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6. |
3rd Lane- Closure
06:24
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My soulmate
Was not human
Much purer than that
Much more than a friend
Exposed to the same
Abusive upbringing
Through that connection
Survival bonded
There’s not enough time in this world
To let you know the way I feel
And time can never heal
The fact that you died
I saw you again
Only it was in a dream
And you, you came up to me
And you asked me how I’d been
Well I, I never can prepare
Death is always unexpected
But you, you knew it was your time
And with grace, you accepted peacefully
There’s not enough time in this world
To let you know the way I feel
I hope that time can heal
This void left behind
I need you
More than I realized
And I miss you
I can not let this part of me go
And I miss you more than I realized, and how you
Came back to me when I needed you
How you were there when I was alone
You never gave up on me when I needed someone to be
There for me
There’s not enough time in this world
To let you know how much I care
I hope you’ll always be there
Right by my side
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7. |
3rd Lane- Ascension
05:24
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When will I see you again?
Maybe never
And as I hold your body
Your soul disappears
Fading
Alone
Into
The great unknown
If I could ask you what’s the point I think you’d say
The point is to try
If I could ask you where you are, why you left me
I think you’d tell me I’m still by your side
If I could ask you for advice I know you’d say
Fuck everybody, hold your head up high
That it was time for me to start believing
In myself the way that you believed in me
So I do this for you
To feel your presence shine on me
To become everything that you
Knew that I could be
And I know that I really don’t know how to sing
But I’ll sing for you
You always listened and that has inspired me
To do this for you
And when I barely have the strength to make believe
I find a reason, to hang on for you
I made you promises that I intend to keep
I owe you that much, for hanging on for me
Thank you for that pure act of living so selflessly
Thank you for your boundaries, but your trusting loyalty
Thank you for your faith and, how you made me feel I am
Someone worth believing in
Thank you for everything that no one else understands
Thank you for listening when no one else gave a damn
Thank you for accepting, taking me for as I am
You brought out the best in me
Thank you
For loving me
For giving me
The strength to believe
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8. |
3rd Lane- Eulogy
06:39
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I cry, I cry for all my sins
Everything I should have been
My anger fades away
Replaced
I pray, not to god, just for myself
To find the strength someday
To rise above this pain
Give it meaning
And if I leave here tomorrow
Would they know my name
Would it mean anything
Would they hear me sing
In the rain
I know, I know I don’t belong
I know that I’ve done wrong
I reflect on my mistakes
The floodgates open
My soul, through the darkness gravitates
To transcend through this plane
To find another place
Of past erased
And if I leave here tomorrow
Would they know my name
Would it mean anything
Would they hear me sing
In the rain
And if I leave here tomorrow
Would my, soul escape
Would it, depart from grace, fly away
Get lost in space
Or find its way
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Falling, without solace
There is something, asking for me
I hear knocking, movement shakes me
It is trying to tell me something
As I’m waking, my eyes will not open
I am caught in, that state of in between
There is light there, surrounded by darkness
They embody the everything
Will I listen, embrace the sensation?
Is it fear or an awakening?
Will the light lead, me out of the darkness?
Will it lead to my enlightening?
You are not my Savior
You have never been there for me
And you are not my Father
You have failed me at everything
You are not my Savior
You have never been there for me
And you are not my Father
You have failed me at everything
I am ready, for it to take me
For there is nothing to take away
There is nothing, left to be afraid of
I have already lost everything
Faith is a personal thing
Unique to your own upbringing
Belief is a destination
Of finding yourself through meaning
Begin…
I have struggled, to try and find meaning
It’s deceiving, and fleeting to say
I have faith now
The truth is I’ve somehow
Already lost, myself along the way
Some people, they seem to think
That they’ve found the only true faith
But each of us has to find that place
Our path in our very own way
I’ve strayed
I have struggled, and fallen in darkness
Finding myself, surrounded by sin
And they asked me, to blow out the candles
So I could see the darkness within
I am ready, for it to take me
For there is nothing to take away
There is nothing, left to be afraid of
I have already lost everything
I am ready, for it to take me
For there’s nothing, to take away
There is nothing, left to be afraid of
I have already lost everything
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3rd Lane San Diego, California
I'm an independent recording artist. My songs deal with stories about my own life and struggles, fighting through feelings of hopelessness and depression, and trying to find some sort of meaning in it all. Thank you for taking the time to listen.
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